Jeez

Jesus, it's been...forever. Almost 2 years. I'm back in San Diego, I'm a senior now. Holy fuck. Haha. I really miss Virginia. Isn't that FUNNY? Sophomore year was just so much fun....and I really miss it. I made new friends in my sophomore year. Amy Judd, Joon-Hyung Yee, Kasey Chau, Duke Nguyen, Roy Endo (actually he sat next to me in History freshmen year but he didn't remember me). Me, Tim Pham, Amy Judd, Cynthia Tong, Alex Zhao, Sean Yang, Teddy Liao, Jam (Joon-Hyung) Yee, Roy Endo, Kasey Chau, and Shannon Chen became the Asian Crew. God, I miss them. I found out that Jam did like me, and if I had stayed in VA, I'm pretty sure he'd be my boyfriend. Fuck man. Fuck. I missed out. I mean most people wouldn't think he's cute but...I loved his personality. Oh and Michael Cronk, I became super close with him when I was in Virginia (my sophomore year). I miss my Virginia friends. Isn't that just laughable how much I wanted to get back to CA and now I want to go to VA? Now that i'm back in California, I've been spending so much time with Izy. I mean that's fine but I only spend time with one person. I've started to work though, in Mira Mesa a H Mart was built and a Paris Baguette inside it. I work at the Paris Baguette. There I have a lot of new co-worker friends. I like to plan get-togethers with them. Mostly because I like this guy, his name is John Moon. JJ for short. As Sandra would say..."Jimmy John" XD anyway, yeah so I like him but guess what...he's fucking taken. He has a girlfriend in LA. Damn my luck man. Haha, sometimes he pisses me off though >< Normally he works Saturdays with me, but this week he's working Friday. I feel like he switched this week because I said that I was leaving early on Saturday...but then again I could be wrong and I just WISHED that he did that. HA well. But Izy keeps reminding me, every day that i work with him, that he's taken and that I should just give up. I'm trying. IT TOOK ME 3 YEARS TO GET OVER DEREK MANN. PLEASE! and JJ is the first guy that I've actually liked (like seriously) since I've come back. I tried to get back in touch with my old guy friends here... Alec Matthews or Matt Peng or Kyle Smurlo or Taylor Cottle or Connor Mann. To no avail. *sigh* Oh so on March 15, 2013 Scripps Ranch High is having their Sadie's and Izy's mom said that Izy can only go with her boyfriend Josh (yeah boyfriend! amazing right? I'm glad she has a boyfriend. he's a nice guy, he goes to SDSU) if I go with a guy. I've asked 6 guys, 5 have said no. You know, that's actually really REALLY downgrading. Does NO one like me? Ok, fine...so like 3 of them I haven't talked to in a long time but minor details. Still, JJ is the only one that said maybe and even he is most likely a no. FUCK. Maybe I can just go with Diana. I don't know. I've applied to 13 schools, so far I've heard from 6. 5 acceptances and one rejection. Not too bad right? I'm stuck between three schools, Purdue, University of Massachusetts-Amherst ($8,000 scholarship for 4 years) and Virginia Tech. VIRGINIA! I miss Virginia. I'm still waiting for other schools though. I don't know. I'm done with school. I don't want to try anymore. I don't care. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of trying and of pleasing. I'm tired of being tired of trying. This is ridiculous. Good bye. For now. We'll see if I'll write again. Maybe in another 3 years? ;]

Citations YAY FUN!

Browne, Dallas L. "Rwanda and Burundi: Culture, History, Power, and Genocide." History Behind the Headlines: The Origins of Conflicts Worldwide. Ed. Sonia G. Benson, Nancy Matuszak, and Meghan Appel O'Meara. Vol. 1. Detroit: Gale, 2001. 225-237. Gale Virtual Reference Library. Web. 11 Apr. 2011.

LONG TIME

WOW....long time no talk/hear/see.
It's been way too long. I'll just have a brief "whatssup" in my life.
I made the tennis team (GO MCLEAN) and is currently number 4/5.
4/5 because our number one, Megumi Chen, is ranked #4 in mid-atlantic and thus can't come to all of our matches. So sometimes I get to be four, sometimes five. Our ranking goes like this...
Megumi Chen
Anna Pelak
Savannah Graham
Emily Tong
Me
Claire Ridgely
DID YOU KNOW (well obviously not) but our assistant coach, Alex Shek is NINE YEARS OLDER THEN US!?!?!?!? Haha okay yeah. Random fact of the day.

So yeah. It's a pretty solid team.
School is going...EHHHHH. It's not TERRIBLE but it's not GREAT. But it certainly is very, very, very LONG. T.T

Socially it's okay. No more mass hang-outs with all the guys. But it's still really fun when we all get together. Yes, Cynthia and Teddy are still going out. So is Duke and Amy Lin, and apparently Daniel and Haemin are going out now. Also Sean and Jenny are still going out (?) but they have had a lot of drama. A LOT OF DRAMA-LLAMA! I still haven't found a boyfriend for Shannon and Amy or a girlfriend for Tim. But I will. Oh I will. I still talk to my California friends, they seem eager for me to come back. Or maybe not? I can think of three people NOT looking forward for my return. Psh whatever.

Let's see...uhhhhhhhh OH. I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS JAPANESE DRAMA CALLED GOKUSEN. IT HAS 3 SEASONS AND A MOVIE. I HAVE WATCHED ALL OF THEM. THEY ARE SO AMAZING AND SOME OF THE GUYS ARE REALLY, REALLY, REALLY CUTE. >< BECAUSE OF GOKUSEN I NOW KNOW KAT-TUN AND ARISHA (Japanese bands). I loveeee <3 <3 <3 <3 Kamenashi Kazuya, Miura Haruma and Matsumoto Jun. <3 So adorable.

I think that's it for now. But who knows. I probably will write more later! >< bye

I don't enjoy life (but i'm not emo)

Life is mean
Life is cruel
Life should go rot in a ditch and die
Life is a F------ in school
Life is ( X . X )

Alright
so yeah i don't like life.
I'm doing not so great now in school.
Like legit.
I'm such a fail!

I have to go study so ill write more after i study (which will be never)

Angry Angry ANGRY

my two friends r going out

and no one told me
but they told everyone else
except me

my best friend here

knew for TWO WEEKS

and didnt tell me

her excuse was

"im not allowed to tell anyone"

wen she was told by someone else

psh

so i got mad

my dad took their side
i punched my punching bag as hard as i could for 5 minutes straight

still pissed
still rlly pissed
went on a cursing rant for 10 minutes while my parents were out @ Tysons 2
Oh and i broke a window on wednesday w/ a ball :)
wish i could do that now...would help my stress